Back on track, again...sort of....

Walked with miranda and patrick last night despite how cold it was. I still havent weighed myself but hopefully it won't be too bad when i finally do.

Updated picture:

Sick, and stuff...

I've been having on and off depression since before my surgery, and now that I've healed and started back at work, I'm trying to catch up with my money getting saved up. But i find myself dreading work, and not being active at all.

I refuse to weigh myself because I know I'll hate what it says. My clothes fit tighter, and i gave away a lot of my 18-20 jeans to a friend of mine.

I keep saying "i need to work out/eat healthier" but I've been depressed, tired, and sick. I currently have a constant fever, and I'm coughing and can't take a deep breath without wheezing.

I haven't been showering as often as i should, or brushing my hair, and My house is a wreck again. I'm stuck in a rut again. And I don't take my
Vitamins and medicines like I should. I'm just lacking motivation.

School registration for spring 2012 started november 1st. I haven't even asked about registering. I'm so afraid because of the way I stopped, that Pel grant wont pay for me.

But I haven't asked about getting a psychiatrist like i was supposed to. If I make a dr appt on tues for this chest congestion, I'm going to mention my mental health as well.

The whole reason i stopped going to class was my depression, my lack of rem sleep, my health...

I throw myself into one thing- and it goes good for a while, until my
Manic depression sets in again.

I just want to be happy and normal. :/

Woah, so...

The fog that I had no idea was there, has lifted. I don't know what changed. But today I have 500% energy. I don't know what changed, but i wanna hit the gym tomorrow after work. WHO'S WITH ME?!

:)

Depression

I know I'm depressed. The house is a wreck, I haven't been able to lift anything over 10 lbs in 2 weeks...i haven't worked in almost 2 months...cyle and I fight non stop.
If I don't have plans, I sleep on and off all day, but still feel exhausted no matter how much I sleep.

Dr gave me the ok to use the treadmill, but I haven't been to the gym.

I haven't had a large appetite, but ive been snacking relentlessly out of boredom. I'm terrified to see what te scale thinks of me snacking.

Ugh.

I don't know what's got me so down, but right now I'm simply too exhausted to think about it.

*GRAPHIC* Updated pictures

My belly button incision

The dress that was "PERFECT"

My gallbladder, and 1 of the 12-14 stones. 

Right side- yuck

1/4 incisions

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Galbladder removal

So I finally broke down and had my gallbladder removed. I've had gallbladder attacks since I had Sery almost 3 years ago.

I had the surgery thursday morning, slept until 5pm, woke up, went to the circus. Then i spent from 12-5 friday looking for something to wear for the wedding i was photographing on saturday, and then went to the rehearsal, then went back to buy a wedding outfit.

Then, saturday, i woke up at 6am, and spent from 10-7pm doing photography for a wedding.

Sunday i slept off and on all day. And today i did the same.

I think im really sore and tired because i overdid it. But now my legs and back are sore from laying around.

Blahh. I cant wait until my stomach stops hurting so i can go back to working out. I cant even pee without my stomach tensing up.

The pain from sitting/standing lessens day by day, but the pain from tensing, or stretching...its like all the muscle/fat inside of me is sore and trying to heal from being cut through, so that hurts more than the incisions themselves.

Hoping to be up and exercising again by next thursday at the latest.

(Not in 3 days thursday, but rather 10)

Feeling kind of down.

So, after revenge I decided I wasnt going to go to sleep. So I Just started playing the biggest loser kinect game. I know I'm overweight, but jumping/running kills my calves very time my feet land on my toes, and hurts my lower back. Are there any low intensity versions that you guys know of?

I cant even do the jogging bit or the jump rope bit without having to stop.

I also cant do the dips, because i cant go low enough. My lower back starts to throb. I hate that i let myself get this unhealthy.

I literally feel nauseous because I feel disgusting.

TIRED.

For some reason, I'm just flat out EXHAUSTED right now.

The new season of Revenge comes on at 8, but after that, I think I'm going to fall asleep.

I ate way too much at dinner. I don't know why, but I just kept eating, even after I was full.

I know it was bad, but it was my only meal today, besides 5 bites of yogurt and maybe 3 strawberries this morning around 9.

We went to Cracker Barrel (Woops, I ate out again...), and I was craving the chicken and dumplings. Which comes with 3 sides. I got Okra (Fried - BAD.), some whole baby carrots (Not the BEST, but that's OKAY), and Mashed potatoes with brown gravy. (They were a huge lump, and crusty, so I didn't eat them.)

I did, however, eat everything on my plate, besides the mashed potatoes though. And I NEVER do that.

I wanted to do Dance Central before bed to burn off some of those extra calories, but I'm so tired right now, that I'm not sure I'll have the energy once my show's over.

Although I've slept great the past two nights, I only averaged 4-5 hours sleep each night, so I think it's taking it's toll, since I've been getting up so early.

If I have the energy, I'll do Dance Central/Just dance or some other workout program tonight.

If NOT, then I'll set some alarms, wake up in the morning, and try to start-up a morning routine, involving VITAMINS, my meds, and BREAKFAST. (You know, those two things I never ever ever do....)

But~ I have some vanilla chai tea left over from this morning, so maybe I can have that with my breakfast tomorrow.

On a weird side note- I have been having some HORRIBLE luck with brewing tea lately. Normally, I boil water, then pour some into a mug. (Most of my mugs are large, so I probably use 1.5-3 cups of water, and depending on the size of the mug 2-4 teabags) For some reason, all of my tea's have turned out so WATERED DOWN. Even after sitting there for 10 minutes. =/

I don't know what I'm doing wrong. But I LOVE vanilla chai tea. It's my favorite. Also, peach green tea is AMAZING. And they're both really healthy and stuff, and help boost metabolism.

I want to look into getting fruit and making smoothies with it, and finding a protien supplement that doesn't taste like ass, and making smoothies for on the go, I don't feel like making breakfast kind of days. <3

BLAH BLAH BLAH, I know. I'm just taking.

Have a great evening~

Workout completed.

I woke up later than I wanted- I didn't even hear my alarms go off until 8, and even then, the alarm didn't wake me up. My body woke up to it's natural alarm clock. I texted Sarah, and we got up, went to Publix and got fruit/yogurt parfaits, and natural high protein drinks. I got vanilla chai tea drink.

We worked out for an hour, we did treadmill, squats, and crunches. 50 lbs, 150 reps. :)

I wasn't able to run as long today, I only ran at 6.0 for half a mile, because my medicine hadn't kicked in, and my chest started burning really bad, and I had a coughing fit. BUT! I still kept going at 2.5, at a 5.0 incline.

I'm proud of myself for continuing to go on.

Now I just took a shower, and we're getting ready to take Sery to Mobile, AL to go see a dinosaur exhibit. I'm taking my camera. LOTS of pictures will be taken.

I want to do this so hard. For myself, and for Sery. I want her to go to the gym with me when she's old enough. And I'm gonna get her to eat green and orange veggies if it kills me. lol

Still, despite my stomach hurting, I have this huge sense of self-satisfaction. That feeling alone, should be able to keep me going. I feel like a train without brakes at the moment, and I feel like I'm flying.

I just hope I keep this up.

I'm so scared of stopping again.

Gallbladder removal surgery next Thursday at 8:30am. I'm scared to death. But I know that I'll be okay. I have to keep thinking positive, or else I'll continue to not sleep, and stress myself out.

Now that I feel fat and disgusting, here's a real post as to WHY I haven't been on in so long.

I have no excuses. I need to be held accountable for my own actions.

I have severe Manic Depression, and it comes and goes every few months.

I've noticed that one thing can throw off my motivation for up to 48 hours.

I'm on a mood stabilizer now, and things have gotten better, but things aren't perfect.

I recently became single, of my own accord.

I just needed less stresses, and needed to focus on my health, spending time with Sery, and working on my mental health, so I can go back to school in January, with a fresh and motivated outlook.

Hopefully I'll keep up with this thing, and stay on track!

MIA no longer

Well, so I got off my healthy kick. Way off. I didn't go to the gym for almost 5 months. Blegh. My body shows it's unhappiness for me becoming a quitter, too. Depression is a horrible thing for me. And sometimes staying motivated is where I fall short.

But nonetheless, I'm back on my feet and trying. And I don't ever try half-assed. So here's to hoping that I can manage to stay on schedule this time!

 

Chest : 43 and 1/4"

Last measured in march : 44 and 7/8" 

 

 

Thighs : 47 and 7/8"

Last measured in march : 29 and 5/8"
(For ONE, where-as I measured around the widest part of my thighs as a whole, rather than individually this time.)

 

 

Waist : 44 and 3/8"

Last measured in march : 38 1/2"  

 Hips : 51 and 1/8"

Last measured in march : 50 and 5/8" 

My last recorded weight in March was 235.4 lb. I am now 240.8 lb.

Turkey burgers - Its whats for dinner

Ranch Turkey burgers. Home made. We'll see how this adventure goes. Wish me luck~ <3

(Also, my weight gain/loss for the day is -.2 lb) Wooh. Not. LOL

New Measurements (with pics)

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NEW MEASUREMENTS:
Bust: 44 and 7/8"

Waist: 38 1/2"

  Top Hips: 41 3/4"

Hips: 50 5/8 "

Thighs: 29 5/8"

Weight: 235.4 lb


TOTAL Weight Loss: 4.6 lb.

 

 

You'll notice some are larger than the old ones. I think that's because I measured the wrong area/measured incorrectly. Hopefully from now on it will be accurate.

Another pound lost!

235.4, and I haven't worked out like I normally do at all. And I've been snacking a lot, but I snack on fruit, or portioned cereal, or 100 cal packs.

Gosh, my face cant smile any bigger!!

All i want is sleeeep

I fell asleep at 8- and happily too. And sery woke me up at 9:30. -_-

I wanted to sleep all the way through until 6/7 tomorrow morning. *whine*

I ate a properly portioned "mug" of cheerios (caramel cheerios are the bomb!) with a cup of silk. Mmm mmm good. My mouth is so dry.

We got sery some of THE cutest skirt/shirt and dresses. I think almost 20 outfits total. Before you go off lecturing me, we have 2 separate wardrobes- one for my house, and one for grandmas. And most of my stuff doesnt fit her any more. And shes a diva, and likes picking out her own clothes, so we get tops that go with more than just one bottom.

My favorite one is black w/ zebra print skirt, w/ black shirt that says the wild child in funky colors and zebra print. Lol
So cute! And i have a bow to match.

Waking up early to go work out tomorrow. Im hoping ill fall back asleep by midnight. Wish me luck~

Best. Day. Ever.

Guess who just weighed herself?! And guess who's really really really really REALLY happy?!?!?!?!

THIS GIRL.

236.8. Boo f'n yeah.

And I've only worked out 2-3 times this past week. I guess portioning really does help! Hah!

Best day ever! Now only...93.2 lbs to go. Rofl. Wish me luck!

Something ive noticed- back in jan/feb i worked out 3-6 days a week, but i ate how i used to.

Now, i eat 1-2 portion sizes, and i try to keep track of it all. And now i work out 1-3 times a week.

I take vitamins too. D,b,c, multi, magnesium, and chromium piccalate.

Magnesium and chromium are supposed to help with weight loss. I guess well see~

Good morning sunshine,

Woke up and hit the stfu button on my iphone alarm app probably about 7-8 times. Then Cyle woke up just before 8, and mentioned breakfast, and my tummy began to beg. So i got up, we portioned out our cereal/milk/juice, then enjoyed breakfast together. (btw, caramel cheerios are amazinnng eith silk very vanilla soy milk)

So then i asked cyle to put away the clean dishes/load the dishwasher with the dirty ones. He did it with a smile- it was SO refreshing to not have to pull teeth to get him to do it.

Then i cleaned up breakfast, put the open cereal into plastic canisters, then started my morning routine- brushed teeth, whitening mouthwash, washed my face with morning wash beads, then put on moisturizer, then put lotion all over my legs/arms. My skin is so soft, and smells so good! It really goves me that happy lift I need in the morning. Then I brushed my hair, which is a huge thing to me, since it gets tangled so easily, and I usually go days without doing it.

Weight wise, I was right at 238.0, but I'm not going to actually update my weight until tomorrows weigh-in.

I REALLY wanna work out this evening after my economics class.

I have a massage appt. at 10. I cant wait- my back's kind of sore from cleaning the house.

I want to start a load of towels before i leave for my massage. Cyle's in there played mass effect 2, so I doubt any cleaning will get done while I'm gone.

When I get home, grandma wants me to go with her to walmart to shop. I'm hoping I can talk her into gettig me some groceries to help me out until i get fs re-approved.

Then I have until 5 to find my eco 2 notebooks, study, and clean. I'm screwed, basically. Lol

I'm hoping she'll let me make an appt with the testing center for ease of open appt times, since her only availability is from 4-6 on wednesdays.

Rawr. I'm in a pretty good mood. I cant wait until friday, when we can get all this garbage out, and my house will look even better. I gotta get the blankets done though- they're the biggest eyesore in the living room/dining area.

Wheeee~ good mood, and a great start to an even better day. :)

But zumba on t/th was cancelled, so i need to get my weekly zumba fix.

Early morning routine day 1

Well. I was up at 6:30.... Then i went back to bed at 7:30-12. Geez. This is hard. I'm thinking the 2 am bedtime plays a big role in my drowsiness.

I ate a yogurt cup, half of an applebees roast beef and mushroom swiss melt, and then took my vitamins/ pills.

(vitamin d, chromium piccalate, centrum for women multi, magnesium, and claritin. ) I forgot to do my nasal spray. Oops. >>

I'm on my way to class atm, a and p, and lab. I studied and reviewed ch 7-9 before i got ready and strted the exam study guides. Hoping that helps me catch up.

No idea what I'm going to do for dinner, something light, then I'm going to try to work out, as long as I'm not too tired.

Ive got 3 more pounds to lose this month. I can do this! I'm getting my life back on track finally. :)

I know I've been MIA...

I've been depressed. Bad. I found out a bunch of health problems, and because of that, my mood plummeted. I've been sick on and off since December on top of it all, and my house went from super clean to a wreck. It's still not 100%, but I would go so far as to give it a 75% back to normal, for the most part. I still have a lot to do though. I missed a lot of school, and I'm really behind. So I've got to go through and bust my butt to keep my grades up. 

But, on a positive note. I've lost 3 pounds. And I have updated pictures. 

I feel let down.

So, monday i met with a personal trainer for my free session with my friend sarah. After the session, he made appts for both of us to come back on tuesday. Because of class times, sarahs appt was in the afternoon, and mine was in the evening.

Well, at sarahs appt, he told her he forgot it was valentines, and that he may have to reschedule my appt, but that hed call/text me and let me know.

7pm rolls around and im getting out of class, and i still havent heard from him, so i texted him. He said to reschedule for WEDNESDAY at 8:30.

So last night sarah and i both went up there at 8- so we were early. He talked to us for a moment, then instructed us to go hop on the treadmills for 15 min to warm us up and get our blood pumping. Meanwhile, he was gonna help out a guy who signed up tuesday night. He said hed be over in a little while to talk about some more stuff.

45 MINUTES LATER, we were still on the treadmills, and he never came by to talk to us, or get started on my 8:30 personal training (abs and chest) appt.

So, i was frustrated, so i went up to the front desk and asked them where he was.

Turns out, he left 20-30 min beforehand without saying a word to anyone.

I was furious. And hurt. For somone who seemed so compassionate and caring, and to have him just leave without saying a word when i had a SCHEDULED APPT because he ditched me last minute the night before?

He was the one that wanted to give us 3 free sessions, so we would know what to expect for our full body...

I texted him, saying "i dont know what happened, but i hope everything is okay."

What i wanted to say is "you just lost two customers because of your unorganized unprofessionalism. "

But no, if he apologizes and means it, and gives me a good reason, id probably still sign up. He really knows his stuff, and 100 lbs to lose is a lot. And i wanna do it the right way without having extra skin, or gaining it back right after.

This is a life-long change, and its a very serious matter to me.

I just really got my feelings hurt last night, and i just want the issue resolved, but im just waiting for him to contact me.

Determination.

Black eyed peas pandora station is amazing for my workout routine. Instead of my normal 1-2 mi on the bike, i went FOUR.

And, i declined cookies and doughnuts today at habitat (building a house) and instead, drank lots of water, and ordered a 250 cal soup from subway!

Todays AMAZING, despite 2 hrs of sleep.

Rest of my workout-

Leg pushes - 2 reps of 40 (60lb each)( total of 80)
Bicep curl - 2 reps of 20 (25 lb ea)(total of 40)
Crunch machine- 2 reps of 40 (60 lbs each)(total of 80)
Leg lifts- 4 reps of 10 (45 lbs ea)(total of 40)

Grossed out. 100 lbs of pure fat?!

Yesterday I met with a personal trainer. Apparently, you're not supposed to do cardio before weight training. And apparently lifting weights/doing crunches isnt going to help me lose weight-- he said ill plateau after 2 months because my muscles will get used to the routine. He worked me out for 20 min, and i had to stop because i literally couldnt breathe and was wheezing. So tomorrow I'm bringing my inhalor with me. I was so tired and i was pouring sweat down my entire body. I'm looking forward to tomorrow though. Hoping its not too expensive so i can go 1-3 times a week. Oh! And he did my body fat percentage, and it was like 43%, but after he did the numbers it was like 100lbs of fat. Gross!

Anyways, I started really watching my foods, and forcing myself to eat today, and now that I've eaten breakfast, around noon I got hungry, and now around 7 I'm getting hungry. I guess skipping meals really affected my stomach, and when it told me I was hungry!

Anyways, Here's my log for today:

I ate breakfast at 7:30am. It consisted of the following:

1) 1 cup of silk milk 

• 100 calories
• 3.5g of fat
• 95mg sodium
• 6g protein
• 300mg potassium
• 11 carbs
• 8g sugar
• vitamins  

2) 1 vanilla yogurt

• 110 calories
• 90mg sodium
• 250mg potassium
• 20g carbs
• 15g sugar
• 6g protein

 3) 1 weight watchers cheesestick

• 50 calories
• 25g fat
• 150mg sodium
• <1g carb
• 6g protein

Then on my way to Zumba at 8, I had a...

4)  Special K Protein shake 

• 180 calories
• 5g fat
• 15mg cholesterol
• 520mg potassium
• 29g carbs
• 5g fiber
• 230mg sodium
• 10g protein
• 18g sugar

**I had 3 bottles of water to drink before/during zumba, and 2 bottles of water in between 9:30-2:00.


For breakfast, that makes a total of...

• 28g protein
• 41g sugar
• 60g carbs
• 11g fat
• 565mg sodium
• 1,070mg potassium
• 15mg cholesterol
• 440 calories
• 5g fiber

For lunch, I ate at 2:30pm. It consisted of the following:

1) 1 cup of V-8 

• 50 calories
• 60mg sodium
• 150mg potassium
• 12g carbs
• 10g sugar
• 15% vitamin A
• 100% vitamin C
• 2% Calcium
• 2% Iron
• 10% Vitamin E

2) 3 oz Chicken

• 120 calories
• 3g fat
• 60mg cholesterol
• 310mg sodium
• 3g carbs
• 19g protein

3) BBQ Sauce (2 tablespoons which is the serving size)

• 60 calories
• 330mg sodium
• 13g carbs
• 11g sugar

4) Spinach Tortilla

• 74 calories
• 2g trans fat
• 222mg sodium
• 17g carbs
• 7g protein
• 12% Iron
• 4% Calcium

 For lunch, that leaves me with a total of...

• 304 calories
• 922mg sodium
• 150mg potassium
• 45g carbs
• 26g protein
• 21g sugar 

So far during the day, that leaves me with...

Calories - 744
Sodium - 1487mg
Potassium - 1220mg
Carbs - 105g
Protein - 54g
Sugar - 62g
Fat - 2g trans, 11g fat
Cholesterol - 15mg
Fiber - 5g


For a 1200 calorie diet, the following is what you're shooting for:
40g fat, 13g sat fat
300mg cholesterol
2500mg sodium
3500mg potassium
165g carbs
14g fiber
24g sugar
45g protein
100% of Vitamin A, C, Calcium, and Iron.


So today, I've managed...


CALORIES - 744/1200
FATS - 11/40 & 2/NA
CHOLESTEROL - 15/300
SODIUM - 1487/2500
POTASSIUM - 1220/3500
CARBS - 105/165
FIBER - 5/14
SUGAR - 62/24
PROTEIN - 54/45

And I'm horrible at keeping track of vitamins. So I'm just not gonna try.

So, out of all of that, I noticed my sugar is the only thing I went over on, but I have yet to eat dinner, and I was thinking about some potato roll sandwiches. They just sound GOOD. 

But - that'll make me watch sugars more. Breakfast ended with 41g sugar, lunch ended with 21g. The thing with the most sugar was the vanilla yogurt(15g), and the special k shake (18g). I'm not sure I want to cut either out, so I guess I'll be lookinf for alternatives?

Tonight I felt fatter than ever

I don't know what was with me tonight. Usually at the gym, I'm fine, but tonight my stomach was killing me. (Probably because I ate right before, but I didn't even eat that much!)

It hurt to suck in my tummy fat, so I looked huge, and it was just depressing. I mean, sure, it'll make me work harder to get rid of it, but its still sad to see. :/

I didn't do abs tonight, because of my stomach hurting, and I didn't do biceps because I started feeling nauseous and just wanted to go home.

And now that I'm home, my back hurts. QQ WHINE BITCH MOAN (and other negative speech verbs)

But anyways, enough complaining. Tonight I worked out.

I did 11 minutes on the bike, and did 1.6 miles, and burned 37 calories.

I did 33 minutes on the treadmill, did 1.55 miles, and burned 129 calories.

I did 10 girl pushups. (Don't make fun of me! They were hard, okay!?!)

5 reps of 10 (45 lbs ea) on the leg lift machine, for a total of 50.

1 rep of 50 (65lbs ea) and 1 rep of 100 (65lbs ea) on the leg press machine, for a total of 150.

I drank 2 whole bottles of water while working out.



For meals today, I had a mushroom swiss burger w. seasoned fries at lunch at IHOP (and I ate almost all of it) with a sweet tea (2 glasses), and for dinner I had 1/2 of a medium TCBY cup, and 1/2 of a med fry from Mc D's, and 4 Mc Nuggets.

I have a serious eating out problem. But I'm never home, and my kitchen's never clean. And if I'm running from 8am until 11pm like I am most days, I can't come home and cook at 11pm, eat by 11:30/12, and then go to bed and get enough rest before 8am the next day! Usually I need to be up at 7!

Sigh. I gotta get this whole eating thing down.

I have yet to have a glass of V-8. I really need to get on that tomorrow.

Also I want to research the best gym workouts for BELLY area fat burning, KANGAROO POUCH fat burning, and THIGH/HIP areas. I'm so tired of my thighs rubbing, but because of my neck/back injuries I can't lift a lot of weight. And because of my leg/hip issues, I can't run right, without it hurting BAD.

However, starting yesterday, I jog at least .25 of each mile I walk on the treadmill. It's a step towards slowly being able to job 1/2 of it, and hopefully a whole mile, and then the whole thing, for 15-30 min, and slowly up to an HR!! :)

I'm trying, that's gotta count for something. I wish the weight loss would start to happen though. It would make me feel a heck of a lot better.

I wonder if the thyroid issue I had while I was pregnant is still an issue, and I've just never known about it because I just up and stopped taking the meds when I moved, and never got it checked again?

Damn, I need to get this medicaid thing worked out, too.

And the Comp Concepts/Keyboarding classes. I need to test out of this shit.

...And I need more hours in the day. I wanna start doing the 30 day shred too. Seriously. NEED MORE HOURS IN THE DAY!!!

Goals!

 MY PERSONAL GOALS FOR 2012

Shirt Measurement goals:

First goal : BUST 42, WAIST 33, HIP 43

Second Goal: BUST 38 1/2, WAIST 30, HIP 41 1/2

Third Goal : BUST  35, WAIST 26 1/2, HIP 38


Size goals:
Shirt size: 2XL/3XL , XL, L, M
Pants goals: 20-22 , 16-18, 12-14, 10-12, 8-10

Weight goals:
There's 52 weeks in a year. I'd like to get down to a FINAL GOAL WEIGHT between 125-140.

So my goals are 200, 180, 160, 150, 140, 130, 120.

For a total weight loss of 240-120 = 120lbs.

So 120 / 52.... which is about 2.3 lbs each week.

Well, I'd love to do that, but my weight fluctuates so much...But I'm going to try my hardest to lose around that. We'll see how it goes! One of my main things is my diet, I'm super picky so I won't eat most veggies and I LOATHE salads....

I guess I'm trying to watch calories, sodium, sugars, and carbs all at the same time? Phew. This stuff is hard!

Plus, I usually only eat one meal a day, and that meal is USUALLY between 7-11pm, which is horrible, not only healthy-wise, but also because I have GERD, and gallstones, so eating that late makes me toss and turn at night from tummy pain, that no medicine seems to be able to cure. :(

Exercise goals:
Work out at least 3-5 times a week, for 4 consecutive weeks.
Work out at least 3-5 times a week, for 8 consecutive weeks.
Work out at least 3-5 times a week, for 12 consecutive weeks.
Work out at least 3-5 times a week, for 16 consecutive weeks.
Work out at least 3-5 times a week, for 20 consecutive weeks.

Recording goals:
Record and keep up with everything without missing more than 5 days in a row.

Blogging goals:
Blog at least 1-2 times a week, 3-5 preferred.

Eating out goals:
Limit eating out to 1-3 times a week total. (for the first 2 months)
Limit eating out to 1 time a week (for month 3-5)
Try to eat out once every 2 weeks (month 6-8)
Try to only eat out 1-2 times a month (month 10-12)

Water intake:

4 bottles of water per day > first month
6 bottles of water to day > second month
8 bottles of water to day > third month
10 bottles of water to day > fourth month, and every month then on.  (Or 1 bottle every 2 -3 hours)

SODAS:
Try to limit them to 1-3 times a week. And limit the amount.


FOR THE MONTH OF FEBRUARY, MY GOALS ARE...

Drink 2 cups of V-8 at least every other day.

Start drinking protein/weight loss shakes, to help boost energy.

Start taking multivitamins.

Try to go to 6/8 zumba classes.

Don't go more than 3 days without working out.

Drink at least 4 bottles of water a day, regardless of working out or not.

Ugh, bmi is so full of it.

"
According to your height of 5' 6" your ideal healthy weight is 139 pounds. Your recommended weight range is between 123 and 154 pounds.
This was calculated using Hamwi formula, a simple formula commonly used by many clinicians."

Your Body Mass index is

38.73-39.93 which is obese.

Measurements, and such.

I worked out Sunday, and Tuesday of this week. Sunday I half-ass did the bike, so I'm not counting it.

But, I did the following on Sunday:

1)1 mi on the treadmill

2) 3 reps of 20 on the thigh machine (45lb each), and 1 rep of 10. (Total of 70)

3) Leg pushes- 1 rep of 50 (45lb ea) (Total of 50)

4) 1 rep of 15 on the calves machine (tip toes) (30 lbs ea) (Total of 15)

5) Leg lifts - 3 reps of 20 (45 lb ea) (total of 60)

6) Biceps machine- 1 rep of 20 at (30 lbs ea) (Total of 20)


And I did the following on Tuesday:

1)Stationary Bike - 2.5mi, 15 min, 52 calories burned

2) 2 reps of 25 (60 lbs ea) on the crunch machine, and 1 rep of 50 at (45 lb ea) (Total of 100)

3) Leg lifts- 5 reps of 10 at (45 lb ea) (total of 50)

4) 10 normal crunches (on the floor), and 5 to each side (total of 20)

We chose not to do the treadmill because our legs were a little sore, and we couldn't do leg pushes because the machine was broken, and the biceps machines were occupied. Definitely going to do the full routine this evening after Eco class though. Hoping Cyle will go with me, or maybe Miranda, but if not, I'll do it solo.

Now, for some pichas!

First bout on the bike machine, for tuesday. Higher resistance.

Then I went a little longer, on no resistance. lol My legs were hurting. Pathetic isn't it?

 

 

 

The following images were taken today : February 8, 2012

Bust size

Waist

hips

I saw this and smiled. I want to be in between the last two, how about you?

Phew!

So I've managed to locate both camera chargers, batteries, and my camera, and BOTH planners. My house is a complete and utter wreck. I really need to correct that this evening/before this weekend.

Anyways, I went to Tallahassee last WED-FRI, and I worked out Sun and Tues of this week. I'm slacking off, and I don't like it, but I'm literally EXHAUSTED. I'm going to look into a multi-vitamin, or something to boost metabolism/energy.

I've got to look up a guide on how/where to do measurements, as well, and then I'll upload pictures of that.

I've not been going steadily for the past week, so I want to go every day for this week.

I need to drink more water, even when I'm not working.

It's not that I'm drinking soda's, and things like that, I'm just not drinking, at all.

Yesterday I had 1 bottle of water, and a can and a half of mountain dew. (My first soda in 2 weeks!)

I've also been eating only one meal a day, usually around 7-10pm, which is the WORST time to eat. Period. But I wake up right before class, and don't have time in between, so after classes is the only option.

My goal this week is to finish cleaning the house, so we can start making meals again. I want to start at least eating breakfast, a light snack, and a light dinner.

Me not eating is probably hindering my weight loss more than anything else, because I'm so hungry at night that I eat more than I should/need, and unless I work out after, and stay up late, the food doesn't digest properly. :(

I weighed in right at 240 today, which is disappointing. I was down to 238 last week....I just need to keep working on it.

I'm hoping (and praying) that part of the weight gain is me gaining muscles, but I'm not so sure.

So,

I've managed to lose my camera, my date-planner, my weight loss planner, and my brain, all in the last 72 hours.

I've found 1/2 planners, but haven't been able to locate the other lost items.

Someone shoot me, please?

(I'll update on the weight loss expedition later)

(Lightsaber thighs)

My thigh muscles are totally having an epic lightsaber duel right now. Just got done doing the bike and treadmill @ the gym.

I feel so...upset...with myself. Because of time constraints i didnt work out fri,sat,or sun, because the gym closes at 8pm those days, and usually I'm free to work out from 7 or 8 until 9/10.

But because its been a while, and because i started my period, and because i did zumba this am, my workout at the gym this evening is 2/3 of what i normally do. :/

I have to make sure that a) i work out while I'm in tally and b) i never go that ling without exercising again.

However, to make up for my legs being pussies (for lack of a better word), i did 4 reps of 50, with 30 lbs per crunch on the abs machine. :)

(Treadmill, I choose you!)

Good morning. Geez, it's early.
I have worked out M-Th so far this week, without a break, and I have yet to be sore. Last night while working out my legs were a little stiff, but I have yet to be sore the day after. THANK GOD.

We forgot to get a measuring tape. I really need to get one of those today so I can start doing measurements.

I bought a workout/exercise diary to help keep track of all of my exercise. I did really well yesterday, 100 crunches on the machine, 10 normal ones, 2 mi on the bike, and 1 mi on the treadmill.

Yesterday, I had chicken noodle soup w/ a can of water, and a bowl of crock pot beef stew with carrots and potatoes, and half a can of mountain dew. Other than the half can, all I had to drink yesterday was water, and flavored water with 0sugar 0cal, etc... So calorie wise, I believe I was under.


Schedule-wise, Yesterday was extremely eventful. (as are the next few weeks, too)


Yesterday (Thursday)-

About to go get dressed, then get Sery ready,

then go to the walmart,

then target,

Go to sallys,

go to bealls outlet,

College to withdraw cash,

then the mall - Belks, Lane Bryant, and Maurices. Not necessarily in that order.

And I gotta get home by 3, class from 4-5:15,

then stopping by the house,picking up workout clothes,

picking up Sarah Del Valle,

then mall again to buy the clothes I tried on in the AM,

and let Sarah buy her dress,

then to the gym to work out!



Whew! Talk about a busy day!! :)





(Today) Friday-

*I have Sery until 3 today

Stopping by the college to withdraw cash,

Then going BACK to Lane Bryant to pick up the stuff I put on hold/order more for my next trip.

going to my Mary Kay lady, Ms. Dora around 12:30,

then picking up Cyle at the airport at 2,

Going to my chiropractor in gulf breeze at 4:15,BUT if I can get there by 3, they may be able to squeeze me in early,

Then home by 5-6, Pick up work-out Clothes,

Then Gym until 8pm when they close.



Saturday-

Photo Shoot w/ Sarah around 11ish for Maurices Model Shoot, downtown location, possibly a picnic lunch.

I need to get together with Ms. Tonya either today, or tomorrow, to study for A and P test on Tuesday.

Oh, and I need to work out.(open 8-8)



Sunday-

Is sheila's birthday, so gma and sheila are going to the melting pot for dinner, so I'll have Sery,

cleaning house, spending the day with Cyle and Sery,

Working out hopefully. (open 8-8)

Grandma's ordering pizza for dinner. I'll need to work out EXTRA hard to burn those cals!!! (Or was it on sat?)



Monday-

Test in Comp Concepts (9-10:15)

Then I need to go to the Gym (24 hrs)

Pack for Tally





Tuesday-

Gmas birthday!

8:30-9:30 Zumba class

Bfast w/ Gma

11am Massage for Gma,

12pm for my massage

Fingers and Toes @ L. A. Nails (1:30-3)

A and P/ A and P lab (4-7:20pm)

Work out

Pack for Tally





Wednesday-

Hair appt (trim and straighten) @ 9:15am

Grab Healthy Breakfast Somewhere

Be at PSC by 11:30

Depart at 12pm, for Tally



I'll be gone until Friday at 12.

I'm going to try to work out while I'm gone, at the hotel.



Saturday, Feb 4'th-

Julie's Bridal Shower @ 12:30pm (In Pace)

Work out (open 8-8)



Sunday-

Work out (open 8-8)





Monday-

MY 21'ST BIRTHDAY! (Also My great uncle's birthday!)

Comp Concepts (9-10:15)

Home & Light Lunch

Chiropractor in Gulf Breeze (2pm)

Work out (open 24hrs)



Tuesday-

Zumba (8:30-9:30)

(Possibly massage in between 10-3)

A&P (4pm-7:20)

Work out (open 24 hrs)



Wednesday-

Comp Concepts (9-10:15)

SGA meeting @ 2pm

Make up test between 4-6 for Economics

Economics (6pm-8:40)

Work out (open 24 hrs)



Thursday-

Zumba (8:30-9:30)

(Possibly massage in between 10-3)

A&P (4pm-5:15)



Friday-

Sister's 12'th birthday



Saturday (Feb 11) -

Habitat for Humanity (8am-2pm)



It may not look that bad, but it's just CONSTANT running. And there's more chiropractor appts needed throughout feb 6-10. 2 more, to be exact. And a massage. Phew!

(MyFitnessPal)

Thursday, January 26, 2012 (at 2:49am)

I'm exhausted, but I'm having trouble sleeping while Cyle's in Va with his mom. He comes back Friday at 2pm, I can't WAIT!

Anyways, I worked out monday night, did zumba tuesday AM, worked out tuesday night, worked out wed night, and I'm going to zumba at 8:30 this am. Which is why, after this post, I'm passing the F out!

I've been half-ass following my eating/working out on My Fitness Pal. I wish there was an easy way to Xfer all of it's data onto here, but I'm lazy.....Maybe I'll do it tomorrow, if I have time. I weighed in at 242.4 today, btw. I took a picture, I just haven't charged my camera battery, and it died on me.

Blegh. Hope the new blog layout is working all right. I need to add a follow button, but I'm tired, so I'll work on it again tomorrow. <3 Night~

(Motivation)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

See? I'm horrible at blogging on this thing. I wish you could see my personal day calendar. It's filled the point where I have 1-2 hour blocks free every day, at the most.

I've been eating horribly. I ate Mc Donalds 2-3 times (Lg meals on top of it), and I ate an app. sampler at Mc Guires, and I ate a LOT at waffle house last night.

But I've done zumba 3-4 times I think, every tuesday, I've missed every thursday so far, but I'm going this thursday, dangit. She said if the class gets cancelled after this month, that she'll move it to a diff. location, and refund the money we already paid.

I started working out yesterday, and I feel amazing. It's really a good feeling to feel motivated. :)




Thought these were all pretty neat, and they're just neat little reminders of how a) I can do it, and b) to not give up, and c) the long term goal - Healthy! :)

(Water Weight?)

Tuesday, January 17

I voided my bladder twice and now im 139.4. Is that even possible? Thats 5 lb of urine in 3 hrs. O.o My water bottles didnt feel that heavy.....

(Pigging out)

Tuesday, January 17'th, 2012

I had yesterday off for school, because of MLK day.

Yesterday, I weighed in at 240, on the dot. I also started using My Fitness Pal app for the Iphone again. It's really helpful when it comes to calorie counting.

As far as what I ate yesterday-
I ended up eating at a chinese buffet. I ate a handful of Krab Rangoon w/ Sweet and sour sauce, some sweet and sour shrimp, some fried rice, and some peaches. Next time I'll stick with the soup. Haha.
I got sick, though, and some of the food came back up. (I'm still sick, and a bout of coughing got me gagging.)

That was around 5ish. Then, around 10, I ate 3 chili cheese sausage links. I know it's not healthy, but ohhh they were so good.

Drink wise, I had probably 3 bottles of water, and 2 1/2 cups of Diet V8 berry splash.

I tried a little bit of yoga, and I didnt like it that much. I didn't feel like it was helping really, but it might be nice for a pre-workout kind of thing, or maybe post workout? Or both? Since I'm bad about stretching...

According to my fitness pal, I was under on every aspect of my daily nutrition (fats, cholesterol, sodium, etc...) except for vitamin A, and C. Those I was over the amount that my body can process, by 1-5 to 2x.

But I don't mind that, lol.

The only thing I want to make more of an effort on, is working out on days that I don't have a lot of classes, or I'm out of school for some reason. I just feel better and happier after exercising. And It makes me feel good that I'm working towards my goal.

Today, Tuesday, January 17'th -

I have yet to eat anything, but since we have plans to go out to dinner at Maguires Irish Pub after 8pm, I'm going to try to eat light snacks throughout the day, so I don't pig out tonight. Maybe some weight watchers low fat skim cheese sticks, and some 100 calorie packs of cookies or something. I'll probably end up getting a burger tonight.

I've had 3 bottles of water to drink so far today, but I'll update with the final tally's either tonight, or tomorrow, if I remember to.



It's 10:26, and I just weighed myself at 244. I don't understand how I can gain 4 lbs overnight, unless its from water weight, and I have yet to use the restroom today. When is the best time to weigh yourself anyways? in the morning? At night? I'll weigh my self again tonight, before and after dinner. I think it's interesting how much my weight fluxuates.

If I gain up to 5 lbs in one day, how the hell am I supposed to lose weight!?!

Ugh, Well. I did 1 hour of zumba today, which according to zumba website, it burns 350-900 per hour, so I'm going to average it, and say I burned 500 calories.

I don't have A and P until 4pm, and I'll leave the house at 3-3:15. Cyle doesn't want to get up until 12, and my Keyboaring book is in the car. Soooo.....I'm gonna go spend time with Sery, I guess? When Cyle gets up I wanna play Dance Central, so I can exercise more. lol

Ooh. Maybe I can go to the gym with grandma today? With our one day- passes? I guess it just depends on how she feels. Doesn't hurt to ask- The worst she can say is no. :)

(Digusted)

January 15, 2012

 I posted dates on here, so I can keep track, along with anyone else keeping up.

 I sucked it in for some of them- You can tell which. Others are just me relaxing. Disgusting, isn't it?

 Me relaxing Vs. Sucking it in. There's not much of a difference, sadly.

Me from new years. I felt pretty that evening. It's a rare occurrence. I want it to start being an every day/every other day thing.

(Falling Behind)

My last post was on January 11'th. Not that anyone can tell by looking at my blog- It doesn't post the day, or the date, just the time. So, from now on, I'll post the day, and the date at the beginning of each post.

*Sunday, January 15, 2012


So, my last post was on Wednesday, when I was about to go eat at Grape Garden.

I ended up eating a whole order of Krab Rangoon, and a third of my General Chicken w/ Fried Rice - No vegetables in the rice, and I had a sweet tea to drink.

I don't think I ate anything else that night.

Thursday, I was at school from 12-5:30 ish, because Cyle needed to put some programs on Beast's PC. Around 3, Cyle bought a bag of fruit gummies for me, and then I ate half of his chili cheese chip puff things.

I drank 2 bottles of water during this time. After class, we ran to walmart, and then to the ER. I was told I had ear infections, and strep throat, so I got prescribed amoxicillin, and loritab. (because I'm too wimpy to get the booty shots.)

Afterwards, we went to Hardy's, and I got a little thickburger w/ cheese, and a lg Cherry coke, and a lg fry. I ate my sandwich, plus another one later, 1 1/2 fries, and 4 onion rings. I pigged out, because I was hungry, because I didn't eat all day. --NOT GOOD.

Friday, I skipped my HPOG meeting, and I stayed in bed all day. I didn't eat anything or drink anything during the day, but then Cyle went to get my RX's, and went grocery shopping. He came back with a lot of Diet/Light V8 fruit drinks/tea, and he made me cream of mushroom soup (I ate one then, and then another before I went to sleep), and I had a whole sleeve of unsalted tops crackers in each. (Not healthy, I know, but It's tastier.) I drank a few water bottles, and then reused the empty bottle to drink rasberry tea, and pinapple mango v8. I like them because they have a lot of vitamins and minerals, that are healthy for me, and they have fruit and vegetable servings.

Saturday, I ate 2 100 calorie packs of little cookies with chocolate drizzle, and then Cyle brought home pulled pork and mac n cheese and a cake slice from Ms. Terri's birthday party. I ate half the cake slice, 3/4 of the two small pulled pork sandwiches, and 1/3 of the mac n cheese on the plate. I drank rasberry tea with it. I also finished off a water bottle saturday.

Today is Sunday, 1/15, and I have yet to eat or drink anything, besides what I drank to take my medicine. I'll probably make soup, or ask grandma for chicken noodle soup, but chicken noodle is so salty, unless you get the low sodium type. I'm planning on trying to play Dance Central on Workout mode today, if I feel up to it. My ears are hurting bad though, and I'm coughing up phlegm, so we'll see.

BUT! I'm finally uploading pictures, so I'll have those here in a bit. Warning- I'm fat, and horribly ugly. I'm working on it though, and I'm trying to get healthier-- That's what counts!

Ooh. I forgot, we have vegetables in the crock pot. Grean beans, carrots, and potatoes. Mmm. That's gotta be kinda healthy, right?


I fixed myself a can of cream of mushro soup with milk, with oyster crackers. Ive had another dose of my medicines and 2 bottles of water.