I've been having on and off depression since before my surgery, and now that I've healed and started back at work, I'm trying to catch up with my money getting saved up. But i find myself dreading work, and not being active at all.
I refuse to weigh myself because I know I'll hate what it says. My clothes fit tighter, and i gave away a lot of my 18-20 jeans to a friend of mine.
I keep saying "i need to work out/eat healthier" but I've been depressed, tired, and sick. I currently have a constant fever, and I'm coughing and can't take a deep breath without wheezing.
I haven't been showering as often as i should, or brushing my hair, and My house is a wreck again. I'm stuck in a rut again. And I don't take my
Vitamins and medicines like I should. I'm just lacking motivation.
School registration for spring 2012 started november 1st. I haven't even asked about registering. I'm so afraid because of the way I stopped, that Pel grant wont pay for me.
But I haven't asked about getting a psychiatrist like i was supposed to. If I make a dr appt on tues for this chest congestion, I'm going to mention my mental health as well.
The whole reason i stopped going to class was my depression, my lack of rem sleep, my health...
I throw myself into one thing- and it goes good for a while, until my
Manic depression sets in again.
I just want to be happy and normal. :/
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