I feel let down.

So, monday i met with a personal trainer for my free session with my friend sarah. After the session, he made appts for both of us to come back on tuesday. Because of class times, sarahs appt was in the afternoon, and mine was in the evening.

Well, at sarahs appt, he told her he forgot it was valentines, and that he may have to reschedule my appt, but that hed call/text me and let me know.

7pm rolls around and im getting out of class, and i still havent heard from him, so i texted him. He said to reschedule for WEDNESDAY at 8:30.

So last night sarah and i both went up there at 8- so we were early. He talked to us for a moment, then instructed us to go hop on the treadmills for 15 min to warm us up and get our blood pumping. Meanwhile, he was gonna help out a guy who signed up tuesday night. He said hed be over in a little while to talk about some more stuff.

45 MINUTES LATER, we were still on the treadmills, and he never came by to talk to us, or get started on my 8:30 personal training (abs and chest) appt.

So, i was frustrated, so i went up to the front desk and asked them where he was.

Turns out, he left 20-30 min beforehand without saying a word to anyone.

I was furious. And hurt. For somone who seemed so compassionate and caring, and to have him just leave without saying a word when i had a SCHEDULED APPT because he ditched me last minute the night before?

He was the one that wanted to give us 3 free sessions, so we would know what to expect for our full body...

I texted him, saying "i dont know what happened, but i hope everything is okay."

What i wanted to say is "you just lost two customers because of your unorganized unprofessionalism. "

But no, if he apologizes and means it, and gives me a good reason, id probably still sign up. He really knows his stuff, and 100 lbs to lose is a lot. And i wanna do it the right way without having extra skin, or gaining it back right after.

This is a life-long change, and its a very serious matter to me.

I just really got my feelings hurt last night, and i just want the issue resolved, but im just waiting for him to contact me.

Determination.

Black eyed peas pandora station is amazing for my workout routine. Instead of my normal 1-2 mi on the bike, i went FOUR.

And, i declined cookies and doughnuts today at habitat (building a house) and instead, drank lots of water, and ordered a 250 cal soup from subway!

Todays AMAZING, despite 2 hrs of sleep.

Rest of my workout-

Leg pushes - 2 reps of 40 (60lb each)( total of 80)
Bicep curl - 2 reps of 20 (25 lb ea)(total of 40)
Crunch machine- 2 reps of 40 (60 lbs each)(total of 80)
Leg lifts- 4 reps of 10 (45 lbs ea)(total of 40)

Grossed out. 100 lbs of pure fat?!

Yesterday I met with a personal trainer. Apparently, you're not supposed to do cardio before weight training. And apparently lifting weights/doing crunches isnt going to help me lose weight-- he said ill plateau after 2 months because my muscles will get used to the routine. He worked me out for 20 min, and i had to stop because i literally couldnt breathe and was wheezing. So tomorrow I'm bringing my inhalor with me. I was so tired and i was pouring sweat down my entire body. I'm looking forward to tomorrow though. Hoping its not too expensive so i can go 1-3 times a week. Oh! And he did my body fat percentage, and it was like 43%, but after he did the numbers it was like 100lbs of fat. Gross!

Anyways, I started really watching my foods, and forcing myself to eat today, and now that I've eaten breakfast, around noon I got hungry, and now around 7 I'm getting hungry. I guess skipping meals really affected my stomach, and when it told me I was hungry!

Anyways, Here's my log for today:

I ate breakfast at 7:30am. It consisted of the following:

1) 1 cup of silk milk 

• 100 calories
• 3.5g of fat
• 95mg sodium
• 6g protein
• 300mg potassium
• 11 carbs
• 8g sugar
• vitamins  

2) 1 vanilla yogurt

• 110 calories
• 90mg sodium
• 250mg potassium
• 20g carbs
• 15g sugar
• 6g protein

 3) 1 weight watchers cheesestick

• 50 calories
• 25g fat
• 150mg sodium
• <1g carb
• 6g protein

Then on my way to Zumba at 8, I had a...

4)  Special K Protein shake 

• 180 calories
• 5g fat
• 15mg cholesterol
• 520mg potassium
• 29g carbs
• 5g fiber
• 230mg sodium
• 10g protein
• 18g sugar

**I had 3 bottles of water to drink before/during zumba, and 2 bottles of water in between 9:30-2:00.


For breakfast, that makes a total of...

• 28g protein
• 41g sugar
• 60g carbs
• 11g fat
• 565mg sodium
• 1,070mg potassium
• 15mg cholesterol
• 440 calories
• 5g fiber

For lunch, I ate at 2:30pm. It consisted of the following:

1) 1 cup of V-8 

• 50 calories
• 60mg sodium
• 150mg potassium
• 12g carbs
• 10g sugar
• 15% vitamin A
• 100% vitamin C
• 2% Calcium
• 2% Iron
• 10% Vitamin E

2) 3 oz Chicken

• 120 calories
• 3g fat
• 60mg cholesterol
• 310mg sodium
• 3g carbs
• 19g protein

3) BBQ Sauce (2 tablespoons which is the serving size)

• 60 calories
• 330mg sodium
• 13g carbs
• 11g sugar

4) Spinach Tortilla

• 74 calories
• 2g trans fat
• 222mg sodium
• 17g carbs
• 7g protein
• 12% Iron
• 4% Calcium

 For lunch, that leaves me with a total of...

• 304 calories
• 922mg sodium
• 150mg potassium
• 45g carbs
• 26g protein
• 21g sugar 

So far during the day, that leaves me with...

Calories - 744
Sodium - 1487mg
Potassium - 1220mg
Carbs - 105g
Protein - 54g
Sugar - 62g
Fat - 2g trans, 11g fat
Cholesterol - 15mg
Fiber - 5g


For a 1200 calorie diet, the following is what you're shooting for:
40g fat, 13g sat fat
300mg cholesterol
2500mg sodium
3500mg potassium
165g carbs
14g fiber
24g sugar
45g protein
100% of Vitamin A, C, Calcium, and Iron.


So today, I've managed...


CALORIES - 744/1200
FATS - 11/40 & 2/NA
CHOLESTEROL - 15/300
SODIUM - 1487/2500
POTASSIUM - 1220/3500
CARBS - 105/165
FIBER - 5/14
SUGAR - 62/24
PROTEIN - 54/45

And I'm horrible at keeping track of vitamins. So I'm just not gonna try.

So, out of all of that, I noticed my sugar is the only thing I went over on, but I have yet to eat dinner, and I was thinking about some potato roll sandwiches. They just sound GOOD. 

But - that'll make me watch sugars more. Breakfast ended with 41g sugar, lunch ended with 21g. The thing with the most sugar was the vanilla yogurt(15g), and the special k shake (18g). I'm not sure I want to cut either out, so I guess I'll be lookinf for alternatives?