(Hello)

First Blog.

Hey there. I'm new at this whole blogging thing, and I doubt anyone will read this anyways, but this is my way of keeping track of my dreams, and my goals, which motivates me to make them become a reality. 

I had my daughter back in November 2009, and I went from a size 13/14 to a size 20 pant. Now, in January, 2012, I'm a size 22-24 pant, and a 3x-4x shirt size. I have a tummy, and Its hard to suck it in anymore. I have backfat. I have those stupid chicken wings on the sides of my boobs. 

I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I hate my hair, my skin, my weight....

I've had back pain ever since I had Sery back in 2009, but back in October 2011, I was in a bad car accident, and my back pain increased 400%. It hurts to lift, to exercise, to move, to stand, to sit, to run...And even though I know part of it is muscle strain, and the fact that my pelvis isn't set right, and I might have a leg that's shorter than the other.....

But despite what my massage therapist says...I know a big part of it is my weight.

I'm tired of being in pain, and I'm tired of taking medicine all the time.

Thats when I decided to make a goal, and make it count.

I'm going to go from my current weight (244.8 lbs) to 200 lbs by fall 2012. If I reach that goal early, I'll keep going until I hit 140-160. 

I joined a zumba fitness dance class at my college, and I'm enrolled twice a week for the entire semester. I'm going to (hopefully) beg my grandmother to work out with me (she has a bad hip, and arthritis), even if it's only 1-3 times a week. We both need to get this weight off, and eat healthier, exercise, drink lots of water....

I'm going to try to get an appointment with a Dr. to get some diet supplements to help speed up my metabolism, and to make sure my thyroid is functioning properly.

I'm also a full time college student, and I'm hoping to find a part time job, as well. All of this, on top of trying to be a mother to my 2 year old is going to be tough, but I know deep down that this is better for all of us. I don't want her growing up worrying about her weight, and what she eats, and to be made fun of like I am. I want her to be confident, and be happy with herself, her self image, and who she is as a young woman. 

I'm going to start trying to eat healthier, and portioning out what I should be eating, and compare it to what I used to eat. 

I'm going to post pictures hopefully weekly of my weight progress, and hopefully daily of my food/drink intake, and exercise. 

I own a Xbox 360 w/ a kinect, and I'm going to try to play zumba/dance central/black eyed peas experience/Just Dance 3 as much as possible as well. If I burn more calories than I take in, I won't gain weight, right?

And on top of all of that, I want to gain muscle. I want to be able to lift things without having to have someone help me. And I want to get rid of this horrible back pain!

All of this is my goal, and if you come across my blog, I hope you enjoy reading about me pushing myself, and showing that anything's possible when you put your mind to it. 

My next post will be old pictures of me, before Sery, during pregnancy, after, throughout 2011, and now, so I can see the differences easier. I'm also going to post todays DAILY POST, and it will include a picture of me with my shirt up, and with it down, with a tank top on, and a picture of my weight on the scale, to prove my weight. 

I'm going to do this. I have to.